Tuesday, January 27, 2015


You might not think being without a dishwasher for going 4 weeks is simplifying but
I have started to find joy standing at my sink looking out over my yard,
drying dishes when they are clean,
and putting them not to touch again until we eat.
{Cutting out the middle man really}
And to make it just a little more fun~
I jumped on YouTube and watched a few videos to learn the granny square
then made a sweet dishcloth.
I can really say it made my dishwashing joyful today!!!
{Making another one tonight while I watch Fixer Upper!!!

And just to add a little smile, THIS is how I found Evie during rest today~
Out of bed, dressed up in my heels, and the sweetest smile.
How could I do anything but take her photo
especially when she asked if she was gorgeous....
Ummmm YES Ms Big, YOU ARE!!!

Monday, January 26, 2015

The Cast Boy~

Payne broke his arm last Sunday was a week ago 
and they set him in a splint for a short time.
Today we traveled back for an x-ray and hard cast~
 He was a champ and we were back in the truck headed home~
Hoping three weeks and he will be all healed up!!!
Wouldn't you say he picked a great color?
Green is his fav!!!

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Weekend IGs~

Saturday Night was Movie Night~
The Aristocrats was loved by all!

Evie went in and stayed the whole time without me standing by the door.
I was able to go to worship with Scott and when I picked them up...
Evie said~
Momma always comes back and I didn't cry!!!
What a huge step for this little fierce soul!
SO proud of you Evie and LOVE you beyond words!!!

Friday, January 23, 2015

The Sewing Divas~

Now that we have that big Zoo creation behind us,
the girls went back to their sewing this afternoon
and love the new book full of projects Memommy gave them~

Since Christmas the girls have been sewing in our formal living room
but today they moved everything up to their room~
 EK remembered Savannah had a machine here and brought it out to use
so they are Dueling Sewing Divas~
It is old school making it a little harder to use
but she's gotten the hang of it pretty quickly.
She DOES say she wants one like SJ for her birthday!

On Sunday SJ made a microphone and yesterday they both made new little pets~
This afternoon, they made art aprons, crayon rolls, hats for the boys :) 
and guitars~
{Daddy even had to make another Walmart run for more stuffing!}
I'm sure they're in bed dreaming of what they will make tomorrow!!!

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Adoption in the Raw~ {WHAT Breaks Your Heart?}

 I guess because EK finished up her school work before the others,
she went digging through our home videos~
and instead of FIAR activity time, we had Life lessons time.

As I sat reliving Amelia's birth, I overheard their conversations processing what they watched.
~you had Mimi in your tummy
~is that little girl Nana
~ where is Gigi
~we're in China
~they didn't GET them like us
~who are those people (Scott's parents gone before they came home)
~look at Memommy and Sissy
Just a beautiful picture of redemption for me.

An hour later, still watching~
It is times like this when adoption thoughts get deep 
and soulful... and I hold my littles each extra tight
so they can FEEL the Forever they now live.

The reality of their loss takes my heart over the edge sometimes
and I would never have wished it on them even if it meant me not being their mom.
{Now THAT is RAW for me!}
I would have chosen their first parents getting the joy I get every single day
that's not how life turned out for them SO...

We make adoption and loss and hard things a normal okay kind of talk
every single day they want to talk about it.
They ask questions and I answer as best I can
 with my broken/thankful momma heart all rolled into one.

I don't know all the answers and probably never will
but I want them to know...
 they can ALWAYS ask 
and I will ALWAYS
walk through the good,
 the bad, 
the beautiful, 
and the raw right along with them.

I recently listened to a sermon by Andy Stanley @ North Point Community Church
He said,
This is that time of year when we become painfully aware of where we are not, who we are not, and what we need to do differently. Traditionally, the new year is a season of self-absorption. It’s all about what we can do to make ourselves better people. The result is that churches, health clubs, debt counselors, and vitamin shops do a booming business.
But we tend to forget that the people we respect the most didn’t devote their lives to becoming the best version of themselves. They devoted their lives to making a difference in the world . . . or in someone’s world.
Learning to give myself away has been the biggest lesson in my adoption journey.
Once we chose this path for our lives, 
our commitment to self was sidetracked.

Andy's key question was~
WHAT breaks your heart?

The beginnings of THESE~
is WHAT breaks my heart!
The choice of their first parents to let them go.
The time they each spent abandoned all alone until found.
Being taken to orphanages where they would live until chosen.
Waiting, waiting waiting.
Cold, hungry, crying, sick with our love to wrap them up.
Being taken to a scary place one day and given to total strangers.
Thrown into a whole new life with no experiences to hinge it all on.

I could go on and on and on but I'll stop here.
Our children have so much to overcome and
so much to live for as well.
Watching the videos today opened up even more opportunities for love to grow
through all the things they have to process.

At one point in the sermon, Andy told a story of he and his wife having a moment
when they broke down over the question~
WHAT if we had MISSED this?

Scott and I feel the same way about ALL our children...
Brings us to SOBS when we think~
{what if we had missed the 5 births and the 6 gotchas we witnessed}

It may be the hardest calling in the world,
but I wouldn't trade my life for anything in the world!!!
{Good, bad, beautiful, and raw}

SO I ask YOU today~
WHAT Breaks Your Heart?
There are 153 million orphans in the world.
Does THAT break your heart?
Please take time to pray how God could change not only the world of a child
but also the blessing you might be missing.
What if you miss it?
Believe me!!!
You DON'T want to!

Nehemiah 1:11a
Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant 
and to the prayer of your servants who
delight in revering your name.

Nothing would make me happier than helping YOU begin a journey
toward YOUR child waiting somewhere in this world.
I am just a comment, email, or call away.
I will help you begin to mend hearts!!!

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

The Greenville Zoo~ {Field Trip}

We were all dressed and beginning school when my friend Ragan texted
and invited us to meet them at the zoo.
Ummm yes!
Packed a couple of bags with lunch, grabbed my camera, and off we went!!!
BOY are we glad we went~
 EK & SJ had wanted to visit the zoo after their big project~

 The zoo is pretty small so the kids feel like they 'Know' all the animals.
Loved seeing every single one and reading about them~
 My sweet friend Ragan and her two babies... (and 2 waiting in China!)

Today was Squirrel Appreciation Day so all the kids made feeders~

After a picnic lunch, we hit the playground~
Could NOT have had a more beautiful day... 70 degrees!~
 Super cool story...
I met an adoption mom and family at the park.
We both had so much in common: lots of Chinese children, homeschool families,
same age, and photogs~
 Our kids hit it off as well as we did and you would have thought we'd known them always~
 LOVED making new friends and great memories~
 Thank you sweet Ragan for making our day Awesome!!!!!

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

The Paynester~ {as we like to call him}

My morning began with this amazing sunrise so I knew it was a good day~
{SOOC with no filter!}

The Paynester slept through the night and came down this am
with his sweet smile ready for the day~
He did not miss a beat the whole day from school to meals to playing outside~
I don't think a broken arm is going to keep him down.
Super Paynester!!!

Monday, January 19, 2015

A Beautiful Day until...~

A gorgeous day of 60 degree weather, the kids played outside all afternoon,
Scott cut grass, and it felt like Spring was here~
 A day of all days until Payne took a tumble on the trampoline
and cracked his elbow~
We got an xray here in town and they sent him on to Athens Orthopedics
for another xray and splint to be worn this week.
We will go back on Monday for a 3 week cast.
Definitely not the worst thing that could have happened
 and Super Payne took it all in stride just like he does with everything!!!

As I waited for he and Scott to make it to clinic and back home,
God lit up the sky in His amazing Glory~
 I pulled up a chair and watched the sun drop into the horizon
looking as if the earth was engulfed in flames.

Hebrews 12:29
"For Our God is a consuming fire."

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Ben Curtis Weekend~

We were thrilled to get a call from Savannah Friday
asking if BC could spend the night with us~
 Turning our usual nothing going on weekend to Ben Curtis Weekend {YAY}~
 He was all over the place crawling, pulling up, and standing alone~
A short video of him in action and just on the verge of walking~
He was mesmerized by the pendulum on the clock!!!
 We all chased him like cray crays in love~
 He is definitely well cared for~
 Mealtimes and bedtime seemed to be WAY more fun~
I wish I had a photo of his face when his mom and dad walked in Sunday...
Memommy came down for a visit~
 And I soaked in all the Grandlove I could on this visit~
 We love and adore you Ben Curtis and can't wait for our next time!!!

Friday, January 16, 2015

'Grow'ing Update~

I LOVE yoga!!!
And getting it done most mornings in pjs before my crew is up for the day!!!
GROWing stronger every day!!!